It seems like yesterday when I took my baby first time in my lap. Truly ! delivering a child is not as painful as the thought of the child being taken away. It was month of April ,hot n humid and I was admitted in hospital for my Delivery ‘C’ section .I was going through an emotional rush –  scared ,nervous and excited. Most of all preparing myself for the big responsibility coming my way. And the moment when my angel arrived i felt joy like never before.

After my operation it took me 4 hours to come back to my  room where everyone was waiting for me n my baby. Everyone was so much interested in the baby rather than my pain but i didn’t care, i loved all the attention my baby was getting.

After being discharged I was happy to be home with my little bundle of joy, my whole room was decorated, relatives all around, I felt so special but god had stored something else for me . The same day,suddenly in the evening my baby  started shaking her leg uncontrollably . My husband rushed her to the hospital and he came back empty handed, doctor said she had fits and she was admitted in emergency.

I felt numb and at that point I realized what motherhood is!

The doctors had put her under observation in NICU and she wasn’t taking feed properly.I was in deep shock, felt as if my whole world was shattered. But  I had to be strong for my baby -i forgot my pain and discomfort I would sit for hours in the hospital daily to feed her but she would just not latch on, I used to cry continuously sitting outside the NICU. It was so painful to watch my little baby’s fingers covered with bandages and  blood being taken from her body every few hours for many tests . It was heartbreaking but i had to still be strong for my baby – i prayed and prayed for her to return back soon.

The doctors were unsure of what resulted in sudden fits they suspected that my baby could be suffering from “Meningitis” and she might not be able to live a normal life . Each and every call from the doctor was so frightening for us. However i kept my faith, kept praying and kept trying to breastfeed my baby. She started accepting my milk after a few days of being in NICU, i was superhappy and felt like i had achieved a milestone in life.Soon after, the doctor confirmed that all her test were normal, and that she was gaining proper weight and she would get discharged. Doctors said they will monitor her for another 6 months and by god’s grace she is a completely healthy and a very intelligent baby.

I guess while taking her back home from hospital  I met my daughter all over again and that fine day I realised Mothers can never give up in any situation – Mothers always have to be brave and determined for their children. #Moms can truly #makeithappen.

— Sakshi Bansal —